The Goddess of Sovereignty
Image – A Woman’s Choice


If you spend enough time walking in sacred sites, you start to realize there are many mysteries. Over time I began to encounter the Goddess of Sovereignty, and she has many forms. She appears in Arthurian legend as the foul hag or Ragnell, the loathy lady, who helps Gawain, a knight of the round table. In order to rule as king, he must marry Ragnell who smells bad, has warts and crooked teeth. But Gawain is wise and the great knight does his duty. After the wedding Ragnell offers her husband a choice– she can either be beautiful during the daylight hours and an ugly old woman at night, or she can be a beautiful maiden at night and a hag during the daylight hours. Gawain is a true Celt, so he considers the situation. He knows that she is both kind and wise. After considering both options, he realizes that Ragnell is the one who must make the choice. Ragnell laughs, and from that moment on she decides to be a beautiful woman during both day and night. The lesson is that all women want to make their own decisions, and the men that honor them might benefit in lovely and unexpected ways!

For more stories about the Goddess of Sovereignty, follow this link to Legends of the Grail: Stories of Celtic Goddesses and turn to the last story about the ancient Cailleach…

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Dreaming with the Earth

may-2019-3This is me emerging from a cairn in Ireland. I was blissed out and danced for a while on the rainy hillside. I had the very real impression that the Otherworlds are indeed real! These mythological sites are pre-Celtic, some predate the Egyptian Pyramids. There are scholars who argue that it was the Celts who took their wisdom to Egypt, the Middle East and even to India. Certainly the mystery schools exchanged ideas, pupils and teachers. The ancient Greeks called these Celtic people the Hyperboreans, and they were believed to have magical powers. We can find a glimmer of these wise beings in the magician Merlin and the Ladies of the Lake. It is easiest to call these wise and magical people the Druids. From all of my research, it is clear that the Druids were the spiritual teachers of Ireland and the British Isles. Their training could last for twenty years and they were powerful. The Romans knew that the only way to conquer Britain was to destroy the spiritual center, and so the magic went underground – literally. There are thin places all over the world where the magic still resides. When we are separated from nature we become weak and confused. When we are divided within ourselves, we can be controlled – even enslaved. It’s time to throw off beliefs that have shackled us. When we return to these sacred sites we have the opportunity to find our roots again. When we connect to our lineage we are empowered by our inner allies. In sacred sites, deep healing begins to take place in our bodies, minds and souls. We often need wise teachers to help us remember, to grieve what was lost, and then to assist us in gathering the inner gifts and resources that are rightfully ours. We have to kiss our inner ugliness so that we can become beautiful and whole. Religious traditions can hold us for a while, but at a certain point they limit us. When the time is right, we need to turn away from the authority figures. Once we drop the outer teachers, we can learn to rely on the wisdom that comes from within. It is a subtle movement, a Grail Quest toward Inner Truth. Once we find our connection to the Great Intelligence, we are on the road to freedom. A whole person cannot be dominated. Freedom is found within and once that blissful nectar is tasted, we are on the journey to the greatest adventure known to humankind. We become a living Grail. An awake and conscious being is a gift to the sentient world.

For more stories about the Ladies of the Lake, go to Heroines of Avalon & Other Tales p.147, and then read the stories of Elaine and the first Grail Champion, Dindraine.

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The Power of Men & Women

may-2019-4The book I am currently writing is about kings and heroes. It is helping me understand my husband, John Patrick Sullivan, in the lineage of the great Munster Kings of Ireland. Today he asked why politicians, religious leaders or doctors thought they had the right to dominate women? I love that the whole dirty illuminati domination and control plot is foreign to him! One of my favorite tales comes from a Roman source that reports that a Celtic man is a ferocious warrior; but if his wife shows up then pack up and go home, because they cannot be defeated. If you doubt this read the story of Queen Boudicca! So let’s not divide men and women, but learn to respectfully dance together. Everyone gets fulfilled when we honor each other’s choices!

To find out how women empower men, read the story of Scottish Goddess Scatach who taught one of Ireland’s greatest heroes


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Portrait of “Elen of the Ways” by Belle Crow duCray.

In the Celtic tradition, kings and heroes must honor the Great Queen or Sovereignty Goddess in order to find unity with the land and community. My idea behind the “Legends of the Grail” series was that the cup, cauldron or grail was symbolic of the feminine deities (the well maidens and other faces of the divine feminine) that were dishonored during the Roman invasion of Britain and the coming of Christianity. The Goddesses all became Mary (and thank goodness she survived) but in the process we lost many archetypes, especially the more frightening ones. We need all of the faces of the Goddess to find our wholeness, our Grail.

Elen is one of these wild women who flies with the deer! Elen of the Ways is a Goddess of Sovereignty who has been worshipped since Paleolithic times and is linked to fertility and the wellbeing of the land. She is often depicted as an antlered deer-woman running along a path. Mythical Elen Luyddog of the Hosts (340-388 AD) of Britain became known as Helen of Caernarfon and the mother of Constantine the Blessed. She is associated with the Roman roads in Wales. It is said that Saint Helena’s pilgrimage trail once extended to Jerusalem. There are more holy wells named after her in Britain than any other female saint. In some legends, Saint Helena of Caernarfon ordered the building of Sarn Helen, a great Roman road that runs through Wales. You can read more about her in Heroines of Avalon & Other Tales.

Was it an accident that I found myself standing on Sarn Helen in North Wales? I had been looking for the road, but I believe it has to find you. There are certain times in life when the shining paths open to you, and magically and mystically you are invited into another world. By a river near Betws y Coed in North Wales, I noticed we were walking on ancient stones. We had found Sarn Helen, I was following Elen’s Way. The forest seemed animated, and I could imagine that Tolkien had once walked there. It did seem that some ancient doorway had opened and that I was walking amongst the creatures of Middle Earth. Each oak seemed like a doorway into another world. Looking down I noticed a white stone looking back at me, and felt quite certain that Elen was allowing me into a poetic and magical dimension.

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Seeing with the Eyes of a Deer

To learn to shapeshift, practice with a gentle deer. Begin by walking mindfully on the Earth for at least 15 minutes. Move slowly, as if you were a deer, moving silently and deeply in rhythm with all of life. With each step, practice listening not only with your ears, but also with your heart. Blink your eyes a few times, and then merge with the energy of the deer. Look at the woods with the deer through her eyes. As you begin to see with the eyes of the deer notice if the world around you appears differently….

(from Heroines of Avalon & Other Tales, “Practice” p.141)
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news-2-19-4Finding the Llywelyns of Dolwyddelan Castle

On a blustery day in October, a friend and I were hiking near Betws-y-Coed in North Wales when the clouds cleared for a moment. The sun lit up a path that shone with a golden radiance. Even the sheep turned to look at the glorious path. What could we do but follow the road to a Wondrous Castle? As we walked I thought about the stories my father used to tell me about his grandmother, a Lloyd who came from London and that her great-grandparents were from a Welsh royal bloodline. I began to understand why my dreams and the whispers of my muses pulled me to Wales. What I love about finding royal bloodlines is that they are fairly easy to trace. Also, these ancient royals believed (for better or worse) that they were on Earth to hold the light for the world. We soon found ourselves standing in front of Dolwyddelan Castle. It took us about ten minutes to figure out the pronunciation, but according to some Welsh sites it is pronounced “dol-why-do-lan.”

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When we visit a sacred site there is a history etched in the soil. If we close our eyes and listen like a deer or other wild creature, the wind might blow through the leaves in a way that opens an enchanted world.



Kings & Heroes

The shining path of the Goddess Elen is interwoven with the path of the Llywelyns. If we look at the name carefully “Llyw–elyn”- it is clear who this tribe served. “Llyw” comes from a Welsh word meaning leader. Leaders of who? Well, leaders of “Elyn” or “Elen.” The ancient ones remembered that the land thrives when the Goddess of Sovereignty is honored!

I felt shivers of excitement as I imagined what it must have been like to be a hero and leader in the 12th century and even earlier. During our current chaotic times, I have thought about the qualities that make a great leader. Certainly King Arthur embodies the qualities of a true king. A true king and hero serves and protects the people. It is his role to love his queen and continue his dynasty. He must do his best to form alliances, create unity and establish peace. A true king and hero must also be prepared to defend his people and his lands with his life. What if these noble qualities were awakened in each one of us? What if we possessed the steadfast strength of kings and heroes? Well, stay tuned because that is the subject of the book I am currently writing…

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